Seeing and not noticing

I asked if I could take his picture, and I put a few dollars on his plate. After that he was very eager to please, and he peered intently at the camera, but it wasn’t his face I was interested in. And later I felt a little guilty about that. I think we all want to be seen. We want to be seen in the way that we see ourselves, and we want to be seen in a way that reveals something we didn’t already know about ourselves. And I was really interested in his hands and his instrument, and he thought I was looking at his face. There are so many ways we let each other down and don’t even realize it.